I was in the shower (for the second time today, thank you exercise) and I was thinking back at past relationships, and how they may have changed my perception of men over the years.
Safe to say that I was never the popular choice for guys in school. I had crushes, obviously. But they always dated the 'popular' slim, pretty girls and avoiding the chubby nerds like myself.
I did have a couple of guys that liked me. OK, so one has since discovered he's gay, and the other was very short but it did make me feel good at the time. I had one 'relationship' as well, but it was very much in the closet/behind closed doors, and the guy made me promise not to tell anyone about us, not even my closest friend. At the time I thought he was just being sweet and not wanting anyone to interfere. How stupid was I?!
So anyway, now I am neither dating a tall or athetic/slim man, yet I have never been happier! I wonder if it was because of my rejection by those types of guys in school that I opened myself up to a wider 'type' and didn't write him off because he didn't conform to an ideal. If that is the case then maybe I am glad I was overweight in high school. I think I'm a better person than most of the shallow people I used to know. :)
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